Tuesday, September 22, 2009

The Flounderer (and I don't mean the fish)

What do you get when a husband is gone for a week-long business trip? A toilet clogged with the biggest bucket load of crap imaginable (from a little friend of my daughter's no less) that took me more than two days and lots of changes of clothes and washing of hands and loud yell---I mean mutterings, to unclog. A child who knows better than to play with fire who almost burns the house down while playing with a lighter. A slow-draining bathtub in the kids' bathroom that, when taken apart, is full of a soft-ball sized clog of hair, pony-tail holders, dirt and slime that takes several hours and lots of tools to get out. A gagging and crying, stressed-out wife and mother who is handling all of this by herself who can barely walk because of a ripped-off big toenail.

Despite all of this, all seems quiet on the family front. At least on the outside. But beyond the quiet, I am experiencing what seems to me to be life-changing events. I feel lost, floating in a sea of uncertainty. I keep praying. What should I do, Lord? I don't have answers. I thought maybe I did, but now I realize that I don't. In time I know that I will feel grounded again, but right now I am floundering.

I know you're wondering what in the world I am talking about and all I can say is that it has to do with our 15 year old son. Our 15 year old son who is turning 16 in November. Our 15 year old son who is only a little more than 2 years away from 18 and having to take on adult responsibility. Our 15 year old son. Yeah.

Lord help us. Lord help HIM.


Elephantschild said...

I'm convinced that my toilet can hear my husband packing for an overnight trip and saves up the c**p to get all stuffed up with after he leaves.

Either that or the stress of having Daddy out of the house causes my 7 yr old to exponentially increase her toilet paper usage.

Could be either one.

I hope the floundering resolves itself. Floundering of any kind is VERY stressful. BTDT. :(

My Thoughts Exactly said...

I am feeling the same way right now. Lost...struggling...sinking. For different reasons. We need to pray for one another.

mighty morphing mom said...

Aw honey, I am so sorry to hear that you are having a rough time. I will be praying for all of you, especially your boy and for you and Big D for guidance and strength. And peace.

eally said...

Aghhhh, I can so empathize with you! The last time Greg left town and was completely unreachable I had a flat tire AND something happened at the house (don't remember right now what it was) but I told him...You CAN NOT leave anymore! LOL

forgetfulone said...

Hang in there momma!

Jeanine said...

It seems household appliances...and cars...have a way of knowing when the hubbies leave town. Sigh. Sounds like you conquered them, though! You are woman!
As for the 15 year old...I can't imagine how tumultuous and scary these years must be! Praying for you both to walk victoriously on those waters instead of floundering.

Toni said...

(((Love you, sister friend!)))

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Hunnybee said...

(((hugs))) You are in my prayers. Hang in there babe! Be still and know that He is God. Love yah! -Hunnybee